Hello, poor little neglected blog.
Life is full. I am exhausted.
I have so much to write about, but honestly, I'm not sure if I should even keep this blog. It started out as a way for me to express myself when I was a teenager (I think I was fourteen or fifteen when I first started...?) and now I'm just embarrassed whenever I go back and read the old posts. I have tons to write about, but I don't know if it's even worthwhile to go to the time and effort to write clear and concise thoughts that nobody will ever read. Rambling to the quiet side of the internet isn't as appealing as it used to be.
But I know that I have a lot of information that could be useful to other unschoolers out there who might want to go to college. I learned a lot from this crazy experience of getting admitted, and I have a lot to say about what university actually entails. But is it worth it? I have almost no spare time. I'm a pre-med student double majoring in Humanities and Japanese. I'm working as a tutor and a teacher's assistant in the English as a Second Language program at school. I'm at school from early morning to late evening, and then when I get home, I have to start on the huge pile of homework. On the weekends I just sleep and do more homework. Blogging is not a priority. I could possibly make time for it, but would it even be worth it?
On one hand, I kind of have this overwhelming urge to "prove" to every anti-unschooling person that unschoolers can succeed in college. (Look at my 4.04 cumulative GPA. Yeah, 4.04. See that? Is your product of public school achieving that?)
On the other hand, yes, I have that GPA, but I still believe that grades are stupid. Why do we have this system of measuring success in academics? Shouldn't you be the one defining your success? Why should some letter/number be telling you what you learned? It's all a game to me. College is a game. "Succeeding" in college is a game. But, I know how to win.
Anyway, I have a lot to say. And not much time to say it.
Does anyone have strong feelings as to whether or not I keep blogging?
Let me know.
6 comments:
Your blog is a lifeline for me, as an unschooling Mum trying to figure out if I'm doing the right thing. BUT, only keep it if you want to...it's your baby.
It seems like a good time to say thank you SO much for writing here. I am desperate for success stories and yours is amazing.
The world needs your words, but if the timing isn't right don't worry about it. Writing about unschooling and college isn't a now or never thing - it will still be relevant months or years from now. Don't feel guilty about not making it a priority.
That being said, I definitely encourage you to keep blogging. (We all need some encouragement!) Even if you can only do once a month, or just in the summertime - whatever you do has the potential to help someone. That's a huge opportunity.
The best part about blogs is they're deletable and changeable. If you're embarrassed with your old posts being here, you can always start a new blog. That's what I did. I'm no longer "Marilou" whining in secret; I'm Molly talking honestly about the things that are important to me. It was time to start fresh and be true to myself.
And (*drumroll*) the big question...
What do you have to lose if you do? What do you have to lose if you don't?
Write when you have the urge to do so, and otherwise keep the blog up so folks can reference the archived posts. Don't be embarrassed now by what you've written when you were younger. It shows how far you've come.
I just stumbled across your blog. It was recommended from my googlereader. I am an unschooling parent who has just started college.
I thought I would be blogging a lot about my first time journey through college at 47 years old. However, I am just really busy. I don't have the academic load that you do but there are a lot of other responsibilities. But I still want to blog.
I want to write about how being in college is making me a better unschooling parent. And also about the definition of success and grades. I told my kids that I will not be broadcasting my grades. I will not be telling them what I am making. How can I? I have always told them that grades don't matter ... not to look for that external measurement. For me, if I am learning and if I am doing my best, that is success for me.
However, I know the grades count to the college, to whether or not I get accepted into my degree program. It's a weird balance to hold.
My advice to you would be to not delete the blog. There may just be moments here and there that you really want to write about this aspect of the unschooling mindset and college. If you do, I really want to read it.
I just came across your blog and I am so happy to have found it! I am a parent of two young unschoolers. My daughter is 1 1/2 and my son is 3 1/2. They are young, but I believe unschooling starts from birth ;) I know in my heart that this is the right path, but I have never met an adult who was unschooled. This blog is wonderful for me to read. It helps me to find support in the decisions that I am making for my family. I think that you should keep blogging if you want to, and stop if you don't. I selfishly hope that you continue blogging because you are an inspiration and I would love to read more.
I love your blog. I loved it from the beginning. Nothing to be embarrassed about. If you don't keep writing, at least don't delete it, so the link I have to it from my blog doesn't go dead!
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